It is not the last number in the sequence
The last drop in the pattern.
Not the be all,
The end all.
The same repetitive conundrums
The raised eyebrows,
The feigned concern
For your fragility
The elbow room.
“He needs his space”
The glassy stare will go excused for now.
A lot of the what’s, the where’s, the how’s
Will always be a why.
It is the last flash of day when the curtains squeeze in the dusk,
The numbing light from the TV at 4 am when you wake
With the cold telling you to stop sleeping,
To wake,
To check the clock,
To wait.
Each click of the second
Reminds me of why.
It is the morning,
The birds brought no comfort today
Window slammed in disgust,
My reflection swimming in the bowl
Recoil,
At the distortion of myself.
Skin that doesn’t hold the life within it very well
Anymore.
When she left,
You thought of the possibilities,
But the knives were blunt anyway.
The thought of release brought no comfort.
Only a sleep,
Just a sleep.